Election kinda reminds me that everyone has their own secrets and desires. Well, many people do many different things to get what they want; and what they want may be what other people want too; and in that way, somehow, everyone’s lives are connected.

I’ve known a few Tracy Flicks in my life- the overachievers who always get things their way. Sometimes I feel like Mr McCallister- I want them to fail, fail and nothing but fail. They are so perfect, but I never really wondered if they ever felt lonely. Maybe they do. Maybe they are so consumed with their meaningless goals, loneliness don’t really bug them.

Sometimes I feel like I am a Tracy Flick myself: too consumed with what I want that I do anything to get it. Now that I think about it, I realise that that’s pretty selfish. What I get in the end may be better off for someone else. I recall my P.E. teacher once saying “everyday, you live in another person’s dream”.

If my life is a movie, it’d begin at the time where I was about 5- a loner, lying (well, barely lying) on my bed, bruised and crying because I got the belt for not wanting to go to school. Then it shall be fast forwarded to the time when I was 10- still a loner, lying (well, barely lying again) on my bed again, bruised and crying because I got the belt for being suspended from class. Then age 17- messed up, lying on my bed, head burried on my pillow, because I didn’t know if I wanted to continue with junior college or drop out of it. And then comes the cliched part where I convince my parents to allow me to follow my dreams, the part where i Carpe Diem-ed (I think that’s how it’s spelt), the part where I made alot of friends and got a few close ones, realised that God hears me in His very own Divine way, life’s not so harsh after all and blablabla.

And now I wonder (apart from who’s going to play me in my movie), is that the resolution to my very own Aristortelian tragedy? Then the movie would totally suck, receive very bad critics and would barely hit the box offices.

Actually, I don’t really know how to reflect for the last tutorial. Hehe. ;p